October 13, 2011
Thursday
My Second Month and 11 days in America.
Many times we don't know what to do when things doesn't seem to come our way. We want one thing but another thing happens. These are the moments when we experience some kind of faith crisis that something inside us wants to quit or give up. We want to go back to the joys of yesterday and escape the trials of today.
Yesterday, I was walking on the way to the Fulton library--our city library and I was pondering while asking God lots of questions. I began to wonder if He really wanted me to be here or maybe I'm just another Jonah who escaped His calling. Inside me I'm telling God how much I have known that He is a great God. I acknowledged that through the years since I was born to now He has never failed to help me and be with me each time. Then I began to ask Him for more of His power, more of His miracles, and more faith that He can help me do anything. I ask Him for the job I have been looking for the past weeks. I cried out that I do not like waking up each day not looking forward to meeting people at my work and being able to influence them for Christ. My heart was crying and telling God that I've had enough and that I need to see more of His miracles. Then a voice inside me tells me that maybe...just maybe...this time of waiting is God's way of shaping me. His way of teaching me how to be creative with the time I have while I am at home; His way of telling me to spend more time with Him each day; His way of strengthening my faith that He can do greater things. He is a big God and He could give me the job I need or what He wants for me right away but He chose to teach me. He chose to give more time so I could reflect and learn. He chose to take time to shape my heart into what He has in store for the future.
My hope began to increase like never before. My confidence in Him was strengthened that suddenly I want to make the most of each of the days He has provided for me to experience Him more. Suddenly I became more hungry for His presence and His Word.
I may have my own plans but His plans always worked for the better. Maybe this is a great opportunity to trust Him. This one opportunity could mean a lifetime of success. I'm willing to take the challenge and face this each day until He decides I'm ready.
He will reveal to you His plans at the right time. Or, He could be already acting on it, you just have your own plans that You didn't recognize His hand at work. In His proper time Stance. In my experience, I've searched for a school to transfer for four years. After that, I had my mind set that I'm not going back to school again, I'll find a job and stuffs. When I stopped searching, that was the time my parents came to know about Messiah College. Be still. That's what God taught me that time. :)
ReplyDeleteThank you so much ate Pau...You have encouraged me and it means a lot. :) Indeed God works even when we don't seem to see it. I will write about the how God has answered my prayer when it comes. God bless you.
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